So Until Then

A lot can happen when the sun goes down,
as long as it happens without a sound,
Cause we're whispering our words away,
stay still, stay here, just stay...

Breath in the beauty of the earth and sea,
smile for yourself or smile for me.
Whatever it takes to make you happy,
that's the man I'll be...

You're eyes have the power to save
and your lips continue to amaze,
but your heart has awaken me,
that I may see your beauty.

You are all that I know and all that I love,
I will only be what you see in me,
cause you're the greatest hope I see,
I pray that when you open your eyes you'll see only me.

Soon we'll be gone, who knows how long.
Hold on to the hope of the past,
you never believe me but my love will last
waiting strong til you come back
praying my heart will soon come back

So kiss me, cause until then I'll be here.
hold on to the love inside of you,
hold on to the words we've said so true
We will be together again soon,
but until then I will love you more
than I know how, more than you will remember,
more than you can forget,
I will love youwith every breath I have left

Neglect

I haven't written recently, and I'm sorry for anyone who really likes reading my blog, all 3 of you (if there are even that many).

I've been busy living and finding myself. Finding things out about myself that I might have not wanted to know, but glad that I found out. I've gotten a little more direction in life, almost securing up a full time job for summer which I am grateful for. I think I'm leaning towards going home...for now at least, which I'm ok with.

I'm going to a Copeland Concert tonight, so definitely expect a post late tonight or tomorrow. Copeland is my favorite band and I know it sounds corny but I get very inspired while listening to their music. A lot of the songs I have written have come while listening to their music.

Love you guys.


Peach ( i wrote peach instead of peace on accident, so im leaving it)

Midnight Snacks and Sidehugs

So today is a joyous day, and i just wanted to tell you all a little bit about midnight snacks and side hugs. Last night me and Jake shared a midnight snack, and it turned into a giggle fest for no reason. There may or may not have been some gas passed, a sketchy character named Jed creeping out of his room, and the awkward roommate gliding around our kitchen. Whatever it was, it made me laugh a lot. I enjoyed a philly cheesesteak hot pocket and Jake had some crackers and cheese. Then i had some ritz bits and Jake had more crackers and peanut butter. So we ate, and chilled, and ate, and then we went to bed.....in our own rooms, to clarify. It was a nice treat.


....oh! and sidehugs, I'm sitting in class right now and my teacher is bringing up sidehugs and how front hugs can be inappropriate because it causes arousal, and I just thought this was pretty humerous. Hahaha, then a full blown conversation about sidehugs and church hugs broke out. sweet life, Liberty University.

thats it. boooored. waiting for the weekend, it's going to be awwwwwesome!


Peace!

Short shorts.

UrbanDictionary.com defines Short Shorts as:

1.	short shorts:
	Extremely short shorts. ex. WHO WEARS SHORT SHORTS? we wear short shorts.

These are typically reserved for women and runners, and Jordan.
Last night was an 80's party, and one to remember. I wore skin tight white short shorts with a yellow sleeveless mesh shirt, and a multi-colored nylon track jacket. Needless to say I pretty much personified the 80's. It was fantastic. You should keep in mind that when you're dealing with a creature of my size, short shorts can be dangerous. Knowing there was going to be dancing i should have thought things through a bit more...but live and learn, right?!?! Anyways, a few sexy moves into the night, my zipper burst...after many failed attempts at fixing the peep-show problem, I accepted my insuming fate. So i continued to dance the rest of the night with a hole in my crotch. This understandable sparked a variety of reactions from the, oh lets say 60 people there....and if i have to be honest, if it were not for my incredible display of dance moves, providing humerous and appreciative voyuerism, I might have turned some stomachs. PHEW, my super sexy, professional dance moves saved me again.

So i laugh at you....those who thought i could'nt pull off short shorts. HA! I fooled you yet again!




moral of the story: Don't underestimate Jordan Benjamin, he is fierce!

peace! J-Bone OUT!

Even Though

Today is a good day....

Even though i am currently met with numerous obstacles, today is a good day.
Even though i don't know where i will be living in a few months, today is a good day.
Even though the economy seems like a pit of sinking sand, today is a good day.
Even though i don't know how or where I will get a job, today is a good day.

because...

I have been bought with the blood of Christ!
I have been cleaned with the whitest snow!
I have been protected by the most experienced force!
I have been loved by the Creator!

Circumstances will not govern my life.
Regret will not govern my life.
Anxiety will not govern my life.
Joy, Discipline, Obedience, Grace, and Love will govern my life!

Live to love, love to touch, touch to feel, feel to know, know to respect, respect to obey, obey to praise, praise to honor, honor to live. Think about it.




peace, love, out

Put Down In Words

You inspire me
With the sweetest ease
Tracing your lips
with the waves of the sea

I could write for a lifetime
But never put down in words
My love for you, cause my
thoughts get lost in your eyes

Morning calls with beauty’s light
I pray one day you wake with me
Lay in bed all day thinking of
Songs to sing that night

We would break the mold of love
Talk about the stars above
Falling to meet us on the ground
Fall from sight without a sound

I could write for a lifetime
But never put down in words
My love for you, cause my
thoughts get lost in your eyes

Let me be what you dreamed for
a love never seen before.
A love that doesn’t stop in bad
Weather, a love that fights together
And a love that last forever

Clean

he wispers in my ear
as the tears cascade
it will never be clear
why there is so much pain

i know my past is dark
and love doesnt seem real
but there is hope for the heart
we will soon see and feel..

the presence of peace
that answers our plea
come comfort to me
make me new and clean

Just when it seems like
im going to break
he takes my hand and
offers strength.
Let him be everything
and you'll finally see
what it means to live free

i know my future looks bright
but i get caught in the past,
in the brokeness of night.
i want to live, not simply last

GO

Speak to me,
Tell me it's a dream
Tell me life is more than it seems,
a higher frequency.
Cause it's getting dark and i can't see
close your eyes a breath

...tell me what you see
there are children dying and
we just let them bleed.
They are starving and we
neglect to feed, who are we?

Why do we say we love
when we dont understand the cost
we get so selfish and lost
in who we ought to be, be
the help to a hungry girl, love
the lost and change the world

...tell me what you see,
the world is dying and we
let it bleed. We are nothing if
we dont obey the King.

Go, go and bear fruit.
be the salt and be the light
so others may finally see the sight
of the loving Father, maker of life.

speak to me.
Open my eyes to what
I choose not to see,
a broken world
an abandoned girl
break my greed
please Jesus, make me clean
Make me see the need
for the faithful to rise
and plant the seed.

change us Lord, for the sake of the children.
Break us now for the sake of your Kingdom.

Poverty

I envy poverty,
Not for the lives it claims,
But for the hearts it saves.
For the strength it portrays
I am desperate to see
A passion that will control me
Strip from me, everything
Everything that makes me numb.
I want to feel pain,
I want a grass stain,
To know I am alive.
I’m sick of waking up in a bed of shame.
Break my identity, break my name.
Leave me feeling empty, without you.
I envy poverty,
Because it demands faith,
A faith that can weather rain
Uncertainty is a plague
Fueled by supply and demand.
It’s crippling me,
I cannot even stand
I’m sinking into apathy,
Save me.
Please save me.
Make me strong,
Like a faith enduring poverty.
I want to feel alive,
I want to love the life in front of me.
But I am helpless unless you save me.
Please save me.
I’m high on dependency,
This life is too much for me.
Save me graciously.
Be my faith to weather the rain.
Be my identity, the only name,
By which I can be saved.



This is my pride and joy of writing. I absolutely love this poem that i wrote almost 2 years ago next month. The words still stand so true today and I hope everyone enjoys it as much as I do! =)

Fragile

All at once I wake up in a dream,
Listening, I hear a voice lingering,
Telling me what my heart is too hard to see
My life is fragile, but I will not break.
My mind is willing, but I'm not awake.
Sometimes I think about life
And the pain I try to vainly escape
Covering myself with clichés,
As an attempt to set things straight.
This will not stop the bleeding
this dream will not curb the feeling
realistically, I must face reality
accepting the stage that was built for me,
singing even when I cant see
dreaming even when I cant sleep
There may be a better way,
a path with less bends and breaks, but I'm
walking along this empty road,
and it is mine, all mine, and I'm
making my way.
Somedays I am strong,
Somedays I am weak,
Sometimes I go to breathe,
But my lungs will not inhale…
Sometimes I think about life
And the pain I try to vainly escape
Covering myself with clichés,
As an attempt to set things straight.
This will not stop the bleeding
this dream will not curb the feeling
"Sleep through the bad days," I once heard.
But if you're so involved with sleep,
How can you live out your dreams? I Lay in bed
Restless, pondering my life's achievements,
Successfully breathing for the first time.
Sometimes I think about my life
And the pain I try to vainly escape,
Am I a waste of time and space?
Am I too far gone to save?

Gay Mirrors

Ok, so this one is going to be a little random, maybe even weird, but i found it hilarious.

The other day I was having a conversation with my friend Bethany and we were talking about random stuff. It led to her saying how she wasn't having a very good day, and the conversation went downhill from there. I suggested dancing naked, as a joke, cause i think its funny, and she replied with how she does that regularly, but she wasn't in the mood. I followed with, "lucky mirrors" like when shes dancing, and her response was priceless. She was like, "unless the mirrors are gay and the sight of a naked woman nauseates them". I laughed hysterically! Then i got to thinking, what if random things around our houses had sexual preferences, like a gay mirror. Imagine all the thoughts that this so called gay mirror will have had all the years you were living in your house and it saw you naked. Orrr what about a gay shower head? Awkward.

Anyways, this was one of those posts more for me, just cause i found it very humerous. If you got a giggle from it, *highfive! if not, go read someone elses' blog, butthead. ha just kidding.



peace,

p.s. my next few posts are going to be songs i wrote in my past that im gunna share with you all...

MYRTLE!

I leaving tomorrow for Myrtle Beach for Easter weekend. Me and Jed are going down to spend Easter with Bill and Rev, and both their families. This has come to be a tradition over the college years and I wouldn't have it any other way. I've had some good times in Myrtle over past breaks, liiiiike Eating KFC 2 Easter's ago, or leaving a trail of twizzlers for Rev to wake up to, the oh so good lazy river. Broadway Poster Store. Eat at eat at Joes. haha. Catfish eating Briton's $20(fortelling). GOOD TIMES!

Anyways, we are going back tomorrow and I expect another great weekend. All of my stresses and problems seem to fade back into the dark when I get to see Bill and Rev. It feels like home! You know you have great friends when you can be apart for long periods of time, but yet pick up where you left off the last time.


Who knows, I could end up in Myrtle before I know it. I could see myself in the new apartment spare room, cooking family dinners, coming home from work and telling about our days, going to Barefoot together, Beach on Sunday afternoons. Thats the Life! haha. If it were only that easy.

When my mom reads this she will be saying "no, come back home". That's probably what will happen momma, im just dreaming.

Anyways, Im getting carried away. The point is I'm in a good mood and today is a good day!

Hmmm?

So I was just sitting here wondering if there was any way possible that i could fit into a Kangaroo's pouch. They get pretty big ya know...And I can't curl up pretty small. I bet i could do it! and it would be a great adventure.

The Kangaroo might die, but I think it's worth a shot.



look at this guy, so modest ^

p.s. this is inspired by me hearing the movie Australia really loud in the basement.

the end.

Light Hearted...

So some part of me thinks it would be cool to live in a nudist colony, ya know, cause who doesn't like being nude...but those thoughts are quickly followed by ones of people having nightmares and sleep walking in a nudist colony, and some part of me doesn't think it would end well in a lot of cases. So then I change my mind about living in a nudist colony.






the end.

I need a lot of help with this one!

Ok, so let me start by saying God is great. I've started some past posts on a negative point and ended positive, so this time i'm going to start positive and see where it takes me.

Let me start by first admitting that I am genuinely scared right now. At about 1:30pm today i got a call from a Legal agency that brought up a name i really wish i could erase from my memory. For anyone of you who know the situation, I was trying to do a good thing and help someone out that was in need....I got screwed, and lost out on some money. I've slowly gotten to a place where I'm ok with it and I'm moving past it......Until today, I get called by a legal agency saying that Jack Weight has defrauded a business and oh so conveniently used my name and number as a reference for whatever happened. So they said it would be in my best interest to contact him and tell him to call them, and if he doesnt then it's going to become my legal issue. Well this isnt exactly advice that I want to hear when Im trying to move on and learn from my past.

- I dont understand how i can be held responsible for someone just stealing my name and number, but it's still scary, i admit.

I'm really trying my best to just give it to God and pray about it but i would really appreciate all your prayers as well. Just pray that this goes away and that God calms my spirit and gives me an assurance that He is going to handle it.

I realize that when we make bad decisions, God sometimes lets us go so that we hit our bottom or at least realize its not working without Him, for me this was last semester. I went through a lot and it has brought be back to where i want to be, and continuing to grow if very important to me now. I just don't understand why God allows stuff like this to happen at times in our lives where we seem to be on the edge of something. I know He promises that he'll never give us more than we can bare, but it's so hard to believe because so many times it feels like more than i can. I'm really trying to practice faith and trust right now, and its hard, i'll admit. I really do know and believe that God is in control, I just honestly cant comprehend why he would bring this Jack thing back into my life right now, with so many other issues on my plate. I really feel like i learned my lesson and was growing from it, and then I get smacked with this. I don't want to doubt God because He clearly knows way more than me...I just wish i had more wisdom, to understand at least some of His ways.

Please please please pray that this would just Go away. I would really rather just put this behind me, especially when i feel like i have dealt with my consequences and im growing. I don't know if this is Satan trying to throw my past back in my face and knock me off track, or I don't know if this is God really pushing me to the brink to try and get me to give up all my trust. I dont know, and there are few things more frustrating in the world than not knowing.

I need the help of my friends and family, just to be praying my name doesnt get dragged through the dirt anymore by this douchebag and I can start to reestablish this part of my life. I know God is in control and I do want to put all my trust in Him. Just keep me in your prayers, even just for a short second. God has the power to do anything and I know he'll take care of everything.


thats really it for today, im not really in much of a giving wisdom, or making people laugh mood today. I love you all and i appreciate you taking time to read this and pray. I can't thank you enough.

peace,
Jordan

different things...

so i saw Slumdog Millionaire tonight, which was incredible. It really made me appreciate the life I have, and almost pissed me off that I let stupid worries weigh me down.

I'm laying here wondering why life happens the way it does. Why does pain have to feel so real? Why is love so hard to find? Why does life sometimes seems to fall apart even when you think you're making all the right choices? How do I really trust?

That's one that is really hitting me hard right now. Like we say we TRUST God, and have faith that He'll lead us in the right direction, which i do. But if you break it down and really think, How do you put FULL trust in anything? it is so hard. Like in every day life, it is an art to losing yourself.
I'll keep trying.

Now back to love...or should i even bother, ha.

Love is tough, but it's what we are here for, and what gives us hope to tackle each day ahead. Being such an intricate part of our lives, why not try to understand it right? I've grown up on what the Bible says about it, which is obviously and so evidently true, but when it comes to the messed up world that we live in, things get a bit more difficult.

Like....oh, um...lets see....
1. Love is patient....ya soooo i might have a little problem with this one.
2. Love keeps no records of wrong...as i age more im beginning to understand this one, which i always found to be astounding.
3. Love is not proud, it does not boast....ok, this one is tricky. Because love takes work, and naturally you want people to see and admire your work, which can sometimes lead to boasting.
4. Love endures all things....We have the greates example ever imaginable in Christ, who continues to love us despite our ignorance and rebellion.

When you look at Love from the worlds perspectives, i really dont even know what you can expect. I think alot of movies get the feelings accurate, but they dont understand the committment and dedication. They don't show the work it takes. These fairytales are bullcrap. I just want to be with someone that will give themselves to me completely. Someone that appreciates who i am and what i have to offer. Someone that will love me and let me love them in return. Someone to share a house with, a dog with, a bed with, a family with, and someone to grow old with.....is that too much to ask? and i dont want to here this "but you're so young" crap. Cause age is not the reason. Timing, timing, timing. There is a reason that i do not know yet, but i know i will sometime.

I'm sorry to anyone reading. I really dont wanna sound like a grouch, but this is real stuff. This is me just pouring out myself. I really am a very hopeful person with alot of joy, but its so easy to just let life get in the way. It makes sense that we make so many mistakes when it comes to love, cause if we all were perfect there wouldnt be much point of still being on earth. So leave this message with a positive heart. We are still here for a reason, and love has not found me for a reason. I'm doing ok! With the Lord's help i will be more than ok! just gotta keep attacking one day at a time.


Soooo...what you should pull out of this:

Love is amazing, but takes work
I have no idea what im doing
I learn something more each day about love
Jesus is the perfect example of how to love
and...stay positive!

love you all, peace

I feel weird

Do you ever have a feeling that you're tired, but if you go to bed you're going to miss something? It's weird. I feel like it comes partially from loneliness and partially from anxiety.

Then it comes to the anxiety. Where you're anxious for no reason, or at least you cant pinpoint what exactly is making you nervous?!?! It sucks.

This sounds bad, but do you ever feel like you could fast forward through life sometimes. Not just skip a certain amount of time completely, but just speed up what is going to happen anyway. Liiiiiike fast forward to the day I meet my future wife, or fast forward to the day I get a good job. It'd be nice to just wake up and seem like things are perfect at that time. Obviously this isn't possible, but it a perfect world i guess.

Life would be perfect right now if:

1. I owned my own place
2. I had a serious girlfriend
3. I had a steady job
4. I had a king size bed, and
5. I had a dog


buuuut i have none of these things. haha.
I'd take any of the 5 and it would increase happiness a lot. Am i pathetic?

I do have life though, so I might as well live it abundantly.
I'm actually really wanting this recruiting job at Liberty. so if you read this, pray for me to get that job, or any job really. There are so many things i want to do, I'm a dreamer, but i feel like satan is just using the idiosyncrasies of life to put pressure on those dreams.

I also just wanna go on record saying that money sucks. Money ruins everything. how can something man invented the concept of, govern our lives so efficiently? So freakin annoying. Money is the root of all evil, because it sucks the life out of people. When we have it, we never have enough, and when we don't, we let our insufficient funds pull us deeper into the meloncholy of life. UGGGHHH

stay positive! tryyyyy, at least.



the verse of the day is killer: “This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.”- 1 John 3:16

this just gave me a big boost. woooh God!

k, i got work in the morning. peace out girl scouts.

Friends!

Bill - you are and always will be my best friend. I love ya kid and I can't believe you're getting married!!! We've shared some awesome memories together and i can only hope to be living with you again soon!

Rev - you are marrying a stud, but you already know that. I love you!!! I wouldnt want you to marry anyone else than Bill, you guys are perfect for each other.

Jed - i dont know if i've ever told you this, but i think you have the ability to make me laugh more than anyone ive ever met. you're a good guy and i hope ya stay that way

Jake - oh intern, we've shared some laughs. After i got over the fact that you're from Texas we had alot of fun together bud, love ya.

Alyssa - what can i say, you are the most beautiful girl in the world, inside and out. You have such a heart fro Jesus that shines so bright and i admire you're passion. =)

Jessica - you're one of my favorite people in the world!!! beautiful and so fun. I respect how driven you are and where you have come from to be the woman you are today

Leslie - you're a horrible driver. haha no im just kidding. I love you, our lunches, talks, hugs. You've always been a great friend to me and i appreciate it.

Chelsea - Like i've told you before, nearly everytime i see you, you put a huge smile on my face. You're a trooper and I love how you always shoot me straight, i need people like that in my life. I love you!

Jodi - you are literally the craziest girl i've ever met, and i love you for it. Don't ever change cause your free-spiritedness is so rare and it is so necessary to live a happy life. I hope we stay close forever because i'll always need the randomness and fun that you bring.

Lindsay - flame on girl! represent the Vegina! haha i know we put you through alot of crap, and you put up with it which is more than i can say about alot of people. You're an intelligent, focused, and driven woman and i hope you find your hippie/vegan counterpart soon!

Elyssa - I love you boo. We've had our share of ups and downs, and part of me is surprised we are still friends, but i thank God that we are. You have such a good heart and you're so talented. You're going to do great in life and I hope Im always a part of it.

Kolar - you stud you. You're a likable guy, bud. Im glad you ended up here at Liberty! We've had plenty of fun times in our day and im sure there are plenty more lined up in the future. I expect in 5 to 10 years you have a ballin coaching job, so if not. you suck.

Meredith - thats weird i dont know how long its been that i used your full name. weird. anyways, i have known you arguably the longest out of alot of my friends. I really loved those times freshamn year where me you and em would hang out. Good luck to ya, and i promise to give you a few more awkward moments =)

Bethy - How could i forget you my dear?!?! We have been through alot, and if it weren't for Tommy we would have never met. It makes me super happy every time you stop by for our catch up chats, and you have the hottest body in Lynchburg, oww owww! Stay tan and im sure to see you in Fla in the next few years!!!

Summer - i know i started off being a dick, haha but im glad we've come around. You really are a special girl and im glad i got to know you better. keep dancin' and representing that HOTlanta!

Cammy - we've had some great talks girl. We never got incredibly close, for one reason or another but we've always been close enough to share some pretty awesome hugs. You are definitely a trooper and i admire how much you hang in there in some difficult situations. You show alot of courage and i dont think you realize it.

Daniel - you are so sexy its ridiculous. Seriously sometimes i lay in bed and just think about how you dont just consume yourself and turn in to a firey ball because you are seriously that HOT. I dont know what the world would do without you, rockin out with your .....hmm, nothing rhymes with rockin. But i love you man. You're an awesome guy and its no wonder why everyone loves you!

Dan - you're the best freakin boss i've ever had. You're a cool guy, and im willing to forget that you're a Yankee fan as long as you like PBR. Keeping pissin on car doors and hating Kevin Keys, cause it's why i love you.

Emily - I love you, girl. You're awesome! I'm glad we got back to a place of really good friends! you're an awesome girl and i always have fun when im around you. Come back to the burg! and bring you're BF, cause he's cool.

Michelle - i havent known you that long, chica, but apparently you're good at everything! I love your sarcasm and im endebted to the girls for bein able to meet you. I love the new haircut, super cute. Keep being talented and smiling!

I think i got everyone, if i missed someone that I'm close with, just kick me in the balls and please forgive me cause its early for me. I love you all so much and if it werent for you guys i would be a very lost individual. You all have shaped me more than you know and I will always remember special memories of all of you. Im not trying to get all sappy, but i just wanted all you guys to know I loved you!

What are you doing after you graduate, seriously???

I'm doing this a lot more than i planned, which kinda scares me. At the same time, i like it.

So this one is to answer the age old question, "what are you doing after you graduate?"

I have no idea, isnt that awesome? (hint of sarcasm)

My options at this point(in random order):

1. Go home, be a bum, "look for a job" (live off my parents money).
2. Get a full time job at Liberty in order to get my grad school paid for (ideal).
3. Move to Titusville and live with the coolest kid ever and his wife, and trying to look for a job! (Bildo and Revie)

SO there are the clean cut answers for anyone that cares. Your guess is as good as mine. There are perks of all 3 options, but clearly, the smartest option would be to come back for grad school if i get a job. Living at home would be a good way to save money but it'd be difficult to find a job. And moving in with Rev and Bill would just me wicked cool because it would be new and exciting time of life. So as of now I'm just waiting on the Lord, trying to pray instead of worry, taking it day by day, and enjoying my friendships that might soon come to a halt. I really am loving life, and anything i end up doing will be great im sure. I know God is going to take care of me.

This one is short, but hopefully sweet. Actually its just for me to kinda itemize stuff so i really dont care if you dont like it. ha

peace

Right thing. Wrong time.

So, lets see. What can I liken this to?

picture these things and the complication they induce:

1. A craving for your favorite ice cream in 0 degree weather.
2. A craving for soup on the hottest day of summer.
3. Going to see the most anticipated movie, being late and it's sold out.
4. A massage...when you're sunburned.

These 4 examples all have something in common: THEY ARE THE RIGHT THING AT THE WRONG TIME.

This is arguably life's most beautifully frustrating issue. How can something feel so right, but have seemingly the worst timing ever. It's almost humorous. You get to a point where something finally seems like its going your way, and God says..."Waaaaait". Due to internal and external issues, a good, or even great, thing can be tainted by timing. I know a lot of you have experienced this feeling, it's awful. Now i cant make it all sound bad, because when its good, its amazing. incredible. seemingly perfect. But wait til you get alone, at night...then it hits you. REALITY. The hardest part about this problem is that no one is to blame, except time itself. They say "time heals all wounds" but it sure as hell wrecks alot of things as well. It's very difficult to be "ok" or "comfortable" with something that is completely out of your control. But then again, thats life. We have to trust that God knows what He's doing.

It comes down to looking at life, from the third party view. Sometimes life makes sense, other times it does not. Sometimes life seems perfect, other times it seems hopeless. It is up and down, back and forth, crazy.

Bottom line:

-The right thing at the wrong time can be frustrating, and it's easier to see the negative, for sure. But no one can deny that it will force you to practice virtues such as patience, trust, and self-control. It happens for a reason, along with everything, so im choosing to embrace it. Maybe the right thing will always be the right thing, and time will finally catch up, maybe not. Maybe what seems to be the right thing, is not the "rightest" or "best" thing. Maybe it really is right but it will always be the wrong time. Some things work, some dont

...but keep in mind, All things work together for those of us who love Him. 2 things i want to point out and then im done.

1. When the scripture says All, its referring to God's all, All of His things work together, and...
2. Those who LOVE him, this is an active love. If we are not diligent and active in our love there is no promise that all things will work according to His purpose.

We love because HE first loved us.
Jordan

what to expect...

So this isnt really going to a be a blog where i sit here and tell you what i had to eat for lunch and junk like that. Thats not me. What is me, is saying whats on my mind. Im not fake, a tell it how it is. I love to write so throughout my blogs you could see some poems and lyrics, some anger, passion, doubt, and love. If anyone ever reads these (maybe Jodi. ha), i hope there is some entertainment value, or at least some insight into my mind.

Life is a complicated, but beautiful problem. There is only one solution that is the true answer. Some say there are many different ways to find that answer, but i would disagree. In the one, true answer lies complete satisfaction. To attain this, bumps and bruises are inevitable, broken hearts are likely, and smiles and tears are regular. It is a narrow path that looks untraveled, which if on can be scary, but at the same time comforting. Up to this point in life, you have realized that most good things don't come easy, so if this narrow path (most likely near a very high cliff if your anything like me) looks untraveled, it's logical it should be a good thing....but at the same time, traveling alone usually sucks. But the trick is to realize that you're not alone, because if you look up, there is a big freakin arrow pointing us in the right direction. So now i ask myself, "why is it so stinkin hard to just look up, when instinctively i know the answer is right there." Its like the world puts blinders on our eyes, not so we wont lose focus, but so we can't attain it. It's amazing how things become so clear to us when we take the time to think and write. So as cliche as all of this has been, when traveling down a dark, skinny, close-to-edge path, you're probably going the right way, but when it doubt, just look up.