I feel weird

Do you ever have a feeling that you're tired, but if you go to bed you're going to miss something? It's weird. I feel like it comes partially from loneliness and partially from anxiety.

Then it comes to the anxiety. Where you're anxious for no reason, or at least you cant pinpoint what exactly is making you nervous?!?! It sucks.

This sounds bad, but do you ever feel like you could fast forward through life sometimes. Not just skip a certain amount of time completely, but just speed up what is going to happen anyway. Liiiiiike fast forward to the day I meet my future wife, or fast forward to the day I get a good job. It'd be nice to just wake up and seem like things are perfect at that time. Obviously this isn't possible, but it a perfect world i guess.

Life would be perfect right now if:

1. I owned my own place
2. I had a serious girlfriend
3. I had a steady job
4. I had a king size bed, and
5. I had a dog


buuuut i have none of these things. haha.
I'd take any of the 5 and it would increase happiness a lot. Am i pathetic?

I do have life though, so I might as well live it abundantly.
I'm actually really wanting this recruiting job at Liberty. so if you read this, pray for me to get that job, or any job really. There are so many things i want to do, I'm a dreamer, but i feel like satan is just using the idiosyncrasies of life to put pressure on those dreams.

I also just wanna go on record saying that money sucks. Money ruins everything. how can something man invented the concept of, govern our lives so efficiently? So freakin annoying. Money is the root of all evil, because it sucks the life out of people. When we have it, we never have enough, and when we don't, we let our insufficient funds pull us deeper into the meloncholy of life. UGGGHHH

stay positive! tryyyyy, at least.



the verse of the day is killer: “This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers.”- 1 John 3:16

this just gave me a big boost. woooh God!

k, i got work in the morning. peace out girl scouts.