so i saw Slumdog Millionaire tonight, which was incredible. It really made me appreciate the life I have, and almost pissed me off that I let stupid worries weigh me down.
I'm laying here wondering why life happens the way it does. Why does pain have to feel so real? Why is love so hard to find? Why does life sometimes seems to fall apart even when you think you're making all the right choices? How do I really trust?
That's one that is really hitting me hard right now. Like we say we TRUST God, and have faith that He'll lead us in the right direction, which i do. But if you break it down and really think, How do you put FULL trust in anything? it is so hard. Like in every day life, it is an art to losing yourself.
I'll keep trying.
Now back to love...or should i even bother, ha.
Love is tough, but it's what we are here for, and what gives us hope to tackle each day ahead. Being such an intricate part of our lives, why not try to understand it right? I've grown up on what the Bible says about it, which is obviously and so evidently true, but when it comes to the messed up world that we live in, things get a bit more difficult.
Like....oh, um...lets see....
1. Love is patient....ya soooo i might have a little problem with this one.
2. Love keeps no records of wrong...as i age more im beginning to understand this one, which i always found to be astounding.
3. Love is not proud, it does not boast....ok, this one is tricky. Because love takes work, and naturally you want people to see and admire your work, which can sometimes lead to boasting.
4. Love endures all things....We have the greates example ever imaginable in Christ, who continues to love us despite our ignorance and rebellion.
When you look at Love from the worlds perspectives, i really dont even know what you can expect. I think alot of movies get the feelings accurate, but they dont understand the committment and dedication. They don't show the work it takes. These fairytales are bullcrap. I just want to be with someone that will give themselves to me completely. Someone that appreciates who i am and what i have to offer. Someone that will love me and let me love them in return. Someone to share a house with, a dog with, a bed with, a family with, and someone to grow old with.....is that too much to ask? and i dont want to here this "but you're so young" crap. Cause age is not the reason. Timing, timing, timing. There is a reason that i do not know yet, but i know i will sometime.
I'm sorry to anyone reading. I really dont wanna sound like a grouch, but this is real stuff. This is me just pouring out myself. I really am a very hopeful person with alot of joy, but its so easy to just let life get in the way. It makes sense that we make so many mistakes when it comes to love, cause if we all were perfect there wouldnt be much point of still being on earth. So leave this message with a positive heart. We are still here for a reason, and love has not found me for a reason. I'm doing ok! With the Lord's help i will be more than ok! just gotta keep attacking one day at a time.
Soooo...what you should pull out of this:
Love is amazing, but takes work
I have no idea what im doing
I learn something more each day about love
Jesus is the perfect example of how to love
and...stay positive!
love you all, peace
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I love what you wrote, but one thing I wanted to say is that you already are with someone who loves you completely, exactly what you wrote as your desires, you have. Jesus! Now sit back and relax in Him because He has a life for you that is more than you can imagine, hope for or even fathom. Just be about Him, the rest of life, or should I even say wife is in His capable hands and I know without a doubt... your dreams about life, relationships and love His plans will blow you away! Wait on HIM Psalm 27
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